I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away...

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[chorus]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let them win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...
been waiting here

[Chorus]

Yesterday had to do last minute History project. Why? Because my entire group, me included clean forgot about the History presentation. What to do? Burn the midnight oil lor. I did the history from 7pm ++ until 12.32am in the morning. Still haven't finished, cause my sis had to use the computer for some Science project. Instead of spending her time doing it, she went to search for pictures. Great. I was so angry with her that I nearly screamed. But my temper has been bad all week so I had to exercise some self-control, and stop screaming.

This morning, I woke up at 6.10am, and was too sleepy to get up. Besides, it was still early. So, I went back to sleep, and I woke up again at 6.40am. The sky was almost brightening up. I quickly got ready, and this time, the bus came on time. Yesterday morning, I waited at the bus stop with the rain splashing at me from 7.08am to 7.19am. If I had known, I would have waited until 7.15 before I left the house.

I wasn't panicking about History before recess as I thought only grps 1-4 were going to present as usual. But during History, when I saw how fast each grp took to present, I panicked, and I became emo. That was the first time I became emo over academics. No choice, so I presented, with Fidee and Yuyi. I was so paiseh la... presenting a piece of work that was not even finished.
So, I will never do it again. Next time, I will do it on the first day, and not let it drag until it slip from our minds.

Then, I returned to my seat, and I started to see who's bluetooth was on. I was searching for devices, and then suddenly Mr Yusri called me to surrender my handphone. I could feel the whole class's eyes on me as I surrendered it. So pai seh!!! wth.

After the lesson, Yuyi and I went to find Mr Yusri to get our handphones back. He gave us that face that clearly said "I am very pissed with both of you". I was kinda smiling at him, and then his face made my smile falter. I mean like.... what was his problem? All the groups were presenting roughly the same thing... use handphone also no harm. He should learn to chill....

After school, we crapped around with Mr Low, or rather Mr High, then we left to find Mr Yusri.
We spent a good 20 min or so calling the HOD room, and looking through the glass door of the general office. What a time waste. Finally, he came out of the staffroom, and he said, "You must ask your parents to come down and collect your phones." I was like wth??!! Yuyi apologized, but I never said anything... I was too pissed?[like i said, my temper has been getting out of control lately] Then, he gave us back. Phew! We then left the school and we had to run down the overhead bridge, because bus 16 was speeding to the bus stop. I distinctively heard horns beeping. (.

Now doing the D&T overdued bad designs. Sian. There is too little time in this world...
And thanks to Lex who cheered me up just now, after my handphone was confiscated.

Yep. The word of the day is "trust". Why?
1.That is because only with trust, people can believe you, without having to worry whether you will betray them.
2.With trust, you will gain the respect of people easily.
3.If you lose that trust, that people have for you, it is very hard to earn it back, just like people's respect for you.
4.If you have earned back that trust, people still might not believe you, and entrust difficult tasks to you to handle.

Is this cheem? LOL. Cheemology.
I don't even know why I am typing all this.

Had games day today. Sian sia. We lost practically everything??
Table tennis, Dev lost the singles, Hanwei and I lost the doubles. Guess who we lost to? Jitxin. Great.
We lost badminton as well. Paesson and Brandon were pissed for a while, but they were okay today. The councellor was biased though. We should have won. She doesn't even know how to count man.
So I stayed back with the usual people, Yuyi, Fidelia, Lex, Brandon, Peter and Cher. After a while, Fish and I got bored, so we, + Yvette decided to play a trick on Fidelia and Lex. We went to the L-shapped toilet, then we left, went to the D&T block and told them to meet us at the L-shapped toilet. After they left with Edwin, we went down to the canteen and we called them, saying that we were waiting for them there. Then, we went back to the D&T block and told them we were at the L-shapped toilet at the second floor. The three got damn pissed with us.
Sorry. Wont do that again. (:
We went home shortly after that.